Saturday, October 14, 2006

i feel so useless. that's wad i wanted to tell him. bud i'm more afraid of letting him noe and making him more unhppy. i noe that he is feeling down. yet there's nth that i can do to cheer him up. my heart feels so pain when i noe that he is feeling so down bud yet there's nth that i can do. aint i useless? call myself his girlfriend. yet i cant even make him happy. stupid audrey!
yst was the first time i went to his house. i'm so happy. cuz i made him wear his sch uniform and his mac uniform. had a good luff. =X and he cooked for me! bud i was bullied! he din allow me to go home! =( and den, his dad came home. den his mum came home. =/ arhhhhh..... my heart almost poped out when he said, my dad is coming back le. =( grrrrrrrrrrr. den he made me so unhappy. no. maybe.. it was me who was being petty. he said his girl-friend was pretty. and he emphasized so much on it! den i became jealous and became unhappy for some time. bud dumb and blur him dunno! =( hais. den when he noe ler, he also dunno how to hong pple. grrrrrrrrrr. bud anyway.. he studied a bit. den we transfer songs and games over to my com. er.. den we slack here and there den it was already 8! so we went to his place there de food court eat.. den eat ler.. i also dunno why la.. having headache. maybe cuz of the new contacts that's not really used to it yet.. so i took a cab home.. hmmmm.. he admited to his mum that i'm his girlfren. *shys* grrrrr. make me so paiseh only. bud while feeling paiseh.. i felt a little happiness. the little happiness is like.. he make u recognised. he wans and made you known to his parents. it's not jus his frens. not his brothers. bud his parents. i also dunno. bud i jus felt very happy. =))
i'm loving him so much tat i've lost myself. i suddenly dunno how to smile cuz i noe that he is feeling so down. i suddenly feel so lost. i suddenly wan to hug him tight and let him noe that i'm always here for him. i'm always loving him. and i always want him to be happy.
dar.. you are not useless. when u asked me if u are useless, i felt so pain in my heart.. i felt as though i'm so useless, so insignificant. so nothing in this world cuz i cant do anything to make u happy.
dar.. i love you.

10/14/2006 08:09:00 PM

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