the battle shall begin today

let me fight this war with honour and bravery

and conquer it within 22 days!

HA HA HA
=)

 10/30/2007 12:55:00 PM

- allalone -

darn that damn stupid teacher. fancy being my teacher when he couldnt answer most of the questions tat i asked. and he even asked me to refer to the solution book for the answer. den wadeva fuck do i need a tutor. i can jus read that damn book. irritating irresponsible fucker. it's only two days to exams and yet u are doing this to me. fuck la.
damn stressed now. i dunno wad to do. wad to study. wad to start. what to practice, when to memorise. i feel itchy all over and scratching myself continously even when i've bathed for a few times already. my tears jus roll down when i'm reading or studying. what the hell. fuck la! i dun wan to sit for this damn bloody exams already la!
fuck off fucker. i hate u. i hate this. i hate all these crap. get lost.

 10/28/2007 07:10:00 PM

- allalone -

exams are nearing
yet
my motivation and revision aint improving
instead
things are going downhill
not only
studies
but
others too
i am
tired
yet
there is
nothing
i can do
i am getting easily
irritatable
moodswings
is it the stress that is controling me
my emotions are
mixed
they are used wrongly at the
WRONG time
WRONG place
WRONG people
i feel
so weak
so drained
i jus wan everything to go by in a flash
jus let go of me
give me wad i wan
this is really too much for me to handle
PLEASE

 10/14/2007 01:18:00 PM

- allalone -

happy birthday to shermain!
hahs.
it's a joyous occasion!
bud on the otherhand, it aint that well for me.
although i've always been talkative and "frendly" to everyone. bud i guess, the real me aint that frenly at all. i guess it was also because of wad i feared most, now. making frens, making them ur best frens and realising, they aint the ones for u, realising they are actually not them. its been bugging me quite a lot. though whenever i think of it, i brush it away, it comes back to me very quickly. probably cuz i cherished this relationship alot. bud now, its gone. and i guess, u'll have to let go of somethings when they are meant to leave.
i miss my sistas alot. cuz they are the ones who wont leave me. yet i've not been spending time with them. sighs. i hope things wld be just as good. i jus dun wan changes anymore.
move on.

 9/24/2007 01:19:00 PM

- allalone -

=((
the papers were horrible.
i just dun wanna study anymore.
its just..
less than 50 days to the big big day.
how prepared am i?
=((

 9/12/2007 10:33:00 PM

- allalone -

it tooked me ages for this damnn thing to load. sighs.haven been in the best of moods lately. stress and more stress. prelims' in 17 days while a levels are in 70 days or less. not sure. haven got the time to come online to read the gurls' blogs. felt really useless whenever i read their blogs. so many things are happening to them. yet i know nth. they were feeling so helpless and so down. yet i couldnt and wasnt there for them at all. call myself wad sister huh? sighs. est and yinn bday in a few days. hope to take this chance to catch up with them. den it'll be busy mugging again. den sher's bday and exams again. glad that their bday aint during my exams. =))
have been stressed out lately. cried while trying some prelim papers of other schs. i couldnt even do them. wad abt my a levels in a few week's time? sch haven been great as well. the class is making so much noise and i cant even pay attention and concentrate. frens haven been great as well. bud thankfully michelle have been staying by me. and jl too. though we had tiffs over me not studying at times when i really give up or a self-declared break. i know i can enjoy for all i wan after my exams. i know it jolly well. all i can hope for is everyone to be happy and great while i'm "away". and i'll be back by mid of nov.
smile, so that things wld look better.

 8/22/2007 09:18:00 PM

- allalone -

haven been blogging for a long time. din have the time to. bud this blog is more of jus merely for me to give wadeva crapp. sighs. haven been of the best moods on the late. FUCK is the only word i can think of now. especially when i'm pissed or down. sometimes, over small things. while some, are jus nth at all. took a day off out with the class girls to sentosa on sunday. tanning session. wad fun though. bud the thrill of feeling the pain after being sun is more fun. it's a loooong weekend ahead. feeel like meetin the girls. yet, i dun seem to have the mood to. sighs. wad's going through my mind. he's been understanding enough towards me. bud.. i dunno. sighs.
i wanna see the fireworks. everyone's saying its very pretty this year.. =(( bud.. nvms.
think of a million and one ways to make me smile, please.

 8/08/2007 07:02:00 PM

- allalone -